My diaper use has fluctuated over the years, for various reasons, but I don’t think I’ve ever changed my goal. My overall aspiration has always been to be diapered all the time (with no gaps except the necessary ones). To use the common term, I’ve wanted to be 24/7.
On multiple occasions, for various lengths of time, I’ve been roughly 24/7. There were persistently two main reasons I wasn’t fully 24/7. One of the reasons was external and one was internal. The external reason was my need to balance wearing as much as possible with being secretive. The internal reason was my often-low commitment to wearing to bed.
As mentioned in my previous post, I recently explained my diaper lover identity to my mom and gained my parents’ acceptance for this part of me. This removed my need to limit my diaper use in order to maintain secrecy. During my initial period of elation about my newfound freedom, I took to wearing diapers at all times. I felt that since I finally could do it, I should. Part of my approach was actually to force myself to wear even when I didn’t feel like it.
Eventually, due to my emotions leveling out more and due to exhaustion and stress from work, I drifted back toward my previous ‘roughly 24/7’ lifestyle. This lifestyle included a habit that I’m ashamed of. It was a habit that I wasn’t happy with when I was doing it, and I wish it had never become a habit.
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As I wrote in a recent post, I had a pretty big scare last April when my parents came closer to finding out I wear diapers than they ever had before. The incident caused me to abstain from wearing diapers for about six months. I don’t remember too well all the diapers I used before then or in what order, but I have a pretty good memory and record of the ones I’ve used since and in what order. If you’re interested in what diapers I’ve had experience with and how much experience I’ve had, this is the post for you!
Early last November, on top of being the first time I bought diapers in six months, was the first time I bought diapers while living on campus and the first time I bought diapers online. (I hadn’t bought online before because I’d been too afraid my parents would intercept my mail.) While the purchase was a first in many ways, it was also a beginning; I haven’t gone long without diapers ever since.
Anyway, what I bought was a 12-pack of small Tena briefs off Amazon. I’d done a lot of browsing on Amazon in the past, I think mostly before the April scare with my parents, and I’d had this choice lined up for a while. I liked it because it was cheap, a good trial-size pack, and from a brand I couldn’t get in stores.
I’d expected the small size to be a good fit based on my waist size, but it wasn’t. And I guess the size problem overshadowed the other problems I had with the diaper, because I went ahead and bought a 28-pack of medium Tena Super briefs less than a week after I bought the first pack.
Sometime while going through the mediums, I concluded that there had to be better diapers than the Tenas. They were basically the same as the Walgreens Certainty briefs I got quite often before the summer; they looked and felt mostly the same, they didn’t last long, and they leaked easily.
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