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Today, I woke up without a diaper on. I had to take my diaper off before bed last night, since it was too wet to spend the night in, and I was so tired that I never got around to putting a new one on.
As soon as I got up, I took my dogs outside to go to the bathroom. That’s always the first thing I do when I wake up at home. I stood out in my yard and watched them, since one of the dogs requires outdoor supervision.
Normally, I have to pee when I wake up. If I’m wearing a diaper, I gratefully use the diaper. Today, since I didn’t have a diaper on and I really had to pee, I peed in a large bush in my yard.
Afterward, I went inside and got ready for work. The first thing I did as part of getting dressed was put a diaper on. At the beginning of the summer, I didn’t wear a diaper to work very often for two reasons: (1) I was afraid my boss and/or coworkers would find out I was wearing, and (2) I work outdoors and it is so hot most days that I barely ever need to pee while working. Knowing that wearing a diaper will make me feel better even if I don’t use it, though, I’ve made a goal to wear to work more often.
As soon as I arrived at work, at 9 AM, I had to pee again, so I did it in my diaper. It felt like I peed about a medium amount. Around 11 AM, I felt the need to poop. I debated on whether to poop in my diaper. I never bring a change to work (I never really have the need or time to change anyway), so I would have to work in a messy diaper for hours and change at home. But I was working alone and it didn’t seem like my boss was going to drop by. Plus, my parents were likely to be out until after I got home from work, which meant I wouldn’t have to worry about them smelling my dirty diaper when I got home. So, messing my diaper wouldn’t be likely to cause any problems. Ultimately, though, I decided to at least wait until later in the day to poop if I could so that I wouldn’t risk bothering the people (non-coworkers) around me.
I drank a lot of water throughout the day, and I peed again at about 1 PM, after I had lunch. It felt like I peed quite a bit that time. Close to 4 PM, I peed a third time. That time, I barely peed at all.
As my workday came to a close, I once again considered pooping. I was up for it, but I didn’t really feel the urge to go anymore and I was busy, so I decided to wait until I got in my car to poop.
By the time I started my car, I was super ready to go home and I still didn’t feel the urge to poop, so I didn’t. When I got home, to my surprise, my parents were both home. I felt a little thankful that I hadn’t pooped, because then I would be worried about detection.
Inside my house, I had a snack and decided to take a shower afterward. I needed to take one because I worked outdoors in the heat all day. Plus, I could poop in my diaper before my shower and easily come out of the situation with my butt completely clean.
When I entered the bathroom a bit later, my training was triggered and I had the urge to pee. I took off my clothes and looked in the mirror to watch myself pee. I didn’t see much through the diaper, to be honest. Then I squatted down to poop. As hard as I tried, nothing came out, so I gave up, took my diaper off, and took a shower. After my shower, I tried to poop in the toilet, but I didn’t have any luck there either.
So, I got dressed and disposed of my used diaper in the mesh trash can in my room. Since it was full, I put all my trash in a grocery bag and took it out to my family’s outdoor trash can. Then I got on here and started typing this up. I haven’t put a new diaper on yet, but I will once I post this. It might last me all night, but if I pee a lot this evening I might have to change it before bed.
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