Update: I’m Not Sick!

Earlier this week, I wrote a post about how I’d most likely caught COVID-19 at work. Well, if any of you were concerned about me, you can now rest easier. I got tested a few days ago, and my test has come back negative. Hooray!

Although no test is perfect, I did get a PCR test, which is commonly regarded as the more accurate of the two available kinds. Considering that, along with the fact that I still don’t have symptoms, I think it’s safe to say I don’t have COVID-19.

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The Waistband Dilemma

One of the things about diapers that my mind has gone through many cycles on is the waistband dilemma: should I hide my diaper waistband or not?

Let me jump back in time just a little to show what I mean.

Approximately midway through the Fall semester last year, after revealing myself as a diaper lover to a friend and being accepted for it, I bought diapers for the first time in about six months. I jumped pretty quickly into wearing them to eat, to class, and in other public situations. But I told myself that it would be a bad idea to risk exposing the diaper to someone. If they saw even my waistband, they might become uncomfortable or have some other unpleasant emotional reaction, and I would have to endure whatever might come with being found out as a diaper wearer.

So, I made sure to hide my waistband as best I could. I kept a constant awareness of how my actions were moving my clothing, changing the way I moved to keep my waistband shrouded and pulling my shirt down whenever I even suspected my waistband might be in danger of being exposed. All of this caused me anxiety, in large part because it seemed like it might come off as suspicious.

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Diaper Journal: 7/11/18

In Diaper Journal posts, I write about my day with a focus on what you might call the “diaper side” of my life.

I ended up not changing out of my Prevail before bed last night, for no reason in particular. This morning, when I woke up, I sat on the edge of my bed and flooded it. I was a bit surprised that I didn’t leak at all.

I kept it on as I started my morning routine, then squatted to poop about fifteen minutes later. I changed into a new Prevail after that. I’d had the old one on for just under 24 hours before I changed it!

Side note: I now only have 1 wipe left! I really need to get to the store to buy another pack soon.

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Diaper Journal: 7/10/18

In Diaper Journal posts, I write about my day with a focus on what you might call the “diaper side” of my life.

I’ll make this one quick, since I need to go to bed soon.

Last night, I put on a MoliCare before bed. I peed in it a medium-ish amount right after I put it on. Then, at 4 AM, one of my dogs woke me up needing to go outside. When I was out with him, I peed about the same amount as I did the first time. When I woke up to get ready for work at 8 AM, I went out with my dogs and peed a medium-ish amount for a third time. I also pooped a bit at that time, while squatting in my yard.

When I got back to my room, I took off my pajamas and saw in my mirror that the MoliCare was super soaked and saggy. I changed into a Prevail before going to work.

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An Upcoming Opportunity to Order Diapers

A few days ago, I found out that I’m going to have another opportunity to order diapers online soon. I immediately knew I wanted to get another pack or two of Prevail Airs, but I also wondered if I should go ahead and try one of the more premium diapers I haven’t tried yet. (I had been planning to wait until the fall semester starts to try any.)

During a slow time at work yesterday, I saw someone wearing a small, one-strap backpack that got me wondering if I could find one like it that would fit diapers. If I could, I could use it instead of a drawstring bag to carry my diapers around at school. I saw some advantages to this, so I looked on Amazon to try to find one.

I found one that looks like it will fit most diapers and looks really nice, so I’m probably going to buy it soon. After I found it, I decided to look at the premium diapers Amazon has, in preparation for my upcoming order. Before looking, I was inclined toward ConfiDry 24/7s. They seem super premium and I’ve been wanting to try them for a while.

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Diaper Journal: 7/6/18

This is the fourth post in my new Diaper Journal series. Please let me know in the comments section if you do or don’t like this type of content so I know if I should keep this series going!

This morning, I woke up a bit earlier than when I’d set my alarm to go off because my entire family was already awake and getting ready to leave (for things I had no idea about until this morning).

Since I needed to get up soon anyway to get ready for work, I went ahead and got up and took my dogs out. I wasn’t wearing a diaper because (for various reasons) I never put one on after my shower last night.

Despite not having to pee very much or very urgently after waking up the past few days, I had to pee really bad this morning. Since my family was up and moving around a lot, I couldn’t bring myself to pee outside when I was out with the dogs. Instead, I bolted for the toilet as soon as I got in. It felt a little weird going in a toilet, since I barely use toilets anymore.

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Optimism About Being Found Out

As I was driving home from work last night, it hit me that I currently have a ton of optimism about others’ potential reactions to my diapers and my potential reactions to them afterward. It also hit me how this optimism has changed my life, such as by making me more relaxed and brave when it comes to diapers.

One thing I’m optimistic about is how my parents would react if they found me out. I doubt they would freak out, and I feel my explanation of my situation would be enough to ease any fears they might have upon finding out. I don’t think they would try to punish me or change me in any way afterward. Nothing about them has changed to make me feel this way instead of how I used to feel (like them finding out would be the end of the world). Only my outlook has changed, from negative to uncertain to positive.

As a result, I wear diapers almost all the time when I’m at home and often have nothing covering my diaper whenever I’m in my room. Also, I keep a stack of diapers on the top shelf of my bedside table. Essentially, I hide my diapers way less than I did when I had a less positive outlook on the possibility of being found out by my parents.

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Diaper Journal: 7/1/18

This is the second post in my new Diaper Journal series. Please let me know in the comments section if you do or don’t like this type of content so I know if I should keep this series going!

I’m gonna be honest. Today is quite a blur in my my mind as I look back on it. Nevertheless, I’ll try to be as accurate as I can in today’s Journal.

Last night, I didn’t pee much before bed, so I ended up sleeping in the diaper I put on after posting yesterday’s Journal.

This morning, I woke up having to pee, as is usual for me. Since I had my diaper on, I sat on the edge of my bed and let it flow. With most diapers, I would probably lift my butt up while peeing in fear of leaks, but I was wearing a Prevail Air, a diaper I’ve grown very confident in.

I then took my dogs out and ate cereal. As I was eating cereal, I felt the urge to poop, so I pushed it out in my diaper. After I finished eating, I changed my diaper. Somehow I ended up in just the new diaper and a pair of athletic shorts, which let the top of my diaper show. I ventured into my laundry room and folded clothes in this attire, confident that the rest of my family was still asleep. They were.

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