My diaper use has fluctuated over the years, for various reasons, but I don’t think I’ve ever changed my goal. My overall aspiration has always been to be diapered all the time (with no gaps except the necessary ones). To use the common term, I’ve wanted to be 24/7.
On multiple occasions, for various lengths of time, I’ve been roughly 24/7. There were persistently two main reasons I wasn’t fully 24/7. One of the reasons was external and one was internal. The external reason was my need to balance wearing as much as possible with being secretive. The internal reason was my often-low commitment to wearing to bed.
As mentioned in my previous post, I recently explained my diaper lover identity to my mom and gained my parents’ acceptance for this part of me. This removed my need to limit my diaper use in order to maintain secrecy. During my initial period of elation about my newfound freedom, I took to wearing diapers at all times. I felt that since I finally could do it, I should. Part of my approach was actually to force myself to wear even when I didn’t feel like it.
Eventually, due to my emotions leveling out more and due to exhaustion and stress from work, I drifted back toward my previous ‘roughly 24/7’ lifestyle. This lifestyle included a habit that I’m ashamed of. It was a habit that I wasn’t happy with when I was doing it, and I wish it had never become a habit.
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If there is any lesson we might learn from diapers, I think it is that changes are inevitable. Those of us who wear diapers are well aware that you must change them sooner or later. It is somewhat under your control, but somewhat not. It is really only a question of when—and your bodily functions usually solve that equation for you. If you refuse to change when you know you should, the results are unpleasant.
Sometimes you change when you don’t need to, though. Sometimes your diaper is only halfway full, but you change anyway for one reason or another. On the other hand, sometimes you hold off on changing for as long as possible. Until the last second before you leak. Sometimes you wish you could go longer without a change, but you just can’t. You’ve started to get uncomfortable even despite your enjoyment. Sometimes you regret changing, but there’s not much you can do about it at that point. You just have to move on. Maybe you can make a better choice this time.
Sometimes, though, changes are wonderful. They are long anticipated. They are welcome. They are satisfying. They are new beginnings. They are fresh starts. They make you more comfortable. They make you happier.
Since the last time I posted on this blog, there have been some changes in my life. Diaper changes, yes, but not just diaper changes. Really big life changes as well.
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Now that I have a superhero-esque illustration representing me online, I think it’s only natural for me to finally share my origin story. By that, I mean the story of how I first became a diaper lover.
I’ve been a diaper lover for a long time, so I’m not 100% certain of when I became one. Perhaps I’ve been a diaper lover for my entire life. I do have very early memories of being fascinated with peeing and pooping, and this seems significant. My mom has also told me that one of my favorite VHS tapes to watch when I was a baby was a tape about how to potty train a child.
While being fascinated with bodily release functions is—in my opinion—at least a precursor to my love of diapers, I don’t think I was actually a diaper lover until I was a bit older. I think the first time I specifically wanted to wear diapers was whenever I was in first grade. This is just a theory, but I have enough anecdotal evidence that I believe it.
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Admittedly, I don’t get new clothes very often. However, I did select a good deal of my wardrobe with the intention of being able to comfortably and discreetly wear diapers underneath my clothes. So, how did I go about this?
Well, as I’ve written about before, I was hooked on diapers as soon as I tried my first pack, which was right around my 17th birthday. It wasn’t too long after that when the time to get some new pants came along. Since I’m quite tall and thin, I wasn’t able to find satisfactory pants in stores. The ones that fit my waist were too short, and the ones that were long enough were too big in the waist.
I’m pretty sure it was my mom who suggested for me to look online for pants. With that advice, I checked out Amazon, and they had some pants in my size. I’m not sure if I was always thinking about diapers while looking for my new pants, but I know I thought about diapers when choosing from the ones on Amazon. The first diaper-related decision I made was to get pleated pants. If I remember correctly, I had seen one of my professors wearing pleated pants at the college where I was dual-enrolled, and I thought that the pleating would help to conceal the shape of a diaper if I was wearing one.
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AB/DL artist Mostly Odourless (@Mostlyodourless on Twitter) designed the fantastic artwork you see below. I’m proud to introduce this character as my official avatar. I may be all about words, but this image shows who I am without a single one. It will be synonymous with my Diaper Demigod name going forward.
If you are interested in the AB/DL art commissioning process, I will soon be posting a detailed walk-through of my experience.